so called celebration of erasing 2011

i'll be doing nothing

i'll be rewarding myself marathon of 2PM show

i'll be waiting for you to text me

so that i can sleep like there's no tomorrow :)

yeah you got me, im a homey person heee

thats all for my celebration of new year eve

till then

this

HAHA this is so true like soo me

things u didnt notice

remember when i told you that

no one can pick me up at bus station and im having my period cramp like crazy

im crying literally because it hurt so bad

i didnt expect you to find me solution, i just want you to be with me

console me, tell me that im gonna be alright

when i say, go and have some fun with your friends at open house

i say it because i had to not because i want to

i sit at the restaurant for like 3 hour?

until my phone was fully charge from 0 to 100

you dont even care if im safely arrive home

u dont even bbm me and bother to ask if im okay

not a single take care for that whole day

all i noe u all happy tweet that you're having fun at your friend house

and to that one person, thanks for consoling me

checking me out every min and even ask his friend to look after me

i cry all the way home

there's a different between care and love

and you just being insensitive as always

like you doing to me right now.

thanks

not-so-skill as a soon to be in law choices

things need to fix.

seriously, i need to. have to and i will!

i have to packing things up on vacation. my mum do tht for me, all the time. bad

the fact that i cant cook. im one lazy bump to even learn to cook :|

waking up early in the morning :O

im having the hard time waking up in the morning. haihh

those 3 things. lets fix them up! hehe

till then

when everyone

when everyone says that you are not worth the wait

i say, who know miracle can happen

when everyone says i deserve better

i say, nobody is perfect

when everyone keep mad at me for crying over you

i say im doing just fine

when everyone hate you, mad at you, ignore you

i say, dont give up. u still have me. even u didnt noe realize that

when everyone say, fana, just give up on him

i say, mybe, just mybe u worth the wait

just that. even a part of my tiny lil heart agree with em,

i will stand right up and trust you

even this is going nowhere

checklist first: new year resolution. done

as everyone looking foward, so do i

so here come list of resolution yall

1) get over you

2) hopefully, i can accept the way i am. i wish i could see what is special inside of me

instead of hating myself for over 20 years

3) gain strength to leave you :') and not falling apart from it nor regret

for having such this decision

4) to be happy :) cuz i am not for this past 2 years

5) appreciate little things

6) emm meet my gu jun pyo, kim hyun joong and nichkhun :B HAHA

7) taking my license. lameee i noe. heh

8) be a better daughter, sister, friends and student and driver haha

9)wearing hijab i think :) and be a better muslimah

10) saving money for korean trip and learn to speak korean. oh yess

11) start in semester 6 with new attitude and confident level

12) have a better jan feb march apr may june jul aug sept oct nov dec :))

its not that hard isnt it except for num 1, 2, 3, 4.. okay its hard :|

there u go. 12 resolution for 2012. lets pray hard for this new year.

lets hope i have gut to tell you

till then awesome people xx

pms-ing i guess?

u noe girls

we noe when we on pms-ing when

1) u wanna eat all the time *yeah im hungry NOW

2)we just get mad and all emosional all fuckin time -__-

3)we got awhh super duper hyper and after tht cry for no reason

4)ur vagina is falling off like literally

but mostly i think, i eat and i cry and paranoid and emotional all the time

its me on pms

it sucks btw that u dont even realize what you've been doing

and when boys complaining,

well try to got ur balls kick

just we have to deal with it for SEVEN FUCKING DAY

it just, i dont like chocolate

dont gimme chocolate, i just hate it

till then

in another life, in would be your girl ; confession of a friend

besides, didnt i told you,

im addicted tothese 2 song

till then

hit the repeat peat peat on the playlist

i keep on listen to these song

which mostly because of the lyrics

p/s; this gonna be bored, u dont have to read it btw, okay

1. tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia, untuk terimaku seadanya

kerna ku tak sanggup, ku tak mampu hidup tanpa dia disisiku

; ost ombak rindu- hafiz & adira

2. walau ku masih mencintaimu, ku harus meninggalkanmu

ku harus melupakanmu, meski hatiku menyayangimu

nurani membutuhkanmu, ku harus merelakanmu

; bukanlah diriku- samsons

3. ku ingin kau tahu diriku disini menanti dirimu

meski ku tunggu hingga hujung waktuku

; cinta dalam hati- ungu

4. kerana dirimu duniaku terlepas kerana kau ku bernafas

kerana tanpamu semangat jadi tewas kerana kau yang teratas

; buat sang puteri- spider

5. if u ever leave me baby, leave some morphine at my door

cause it take a lot of medication to realize what we used to have

we dont have it anymore

; it will rain- bruno mars

6. if u wanna leave take good care

hope u make a lot of frienda out there

; wild world- mr big

7. u might think i dont look but deep inside the corner of my mind im attach to you

im weak, its true cuz im afraid to noe the answer

do u want me to

; true- ryan cabrera

8. i dont wanna fall to pieces, i just wanna sit and stare at you

i dont wanna talk about it, i dont wanna conversation

i just wanna cry in front of you

; fall to pieces- avril lavigne

9. so why dont you go ur way and ill go mine, leave ur live and i live mine

baby u do well, and ill be fine cuz we better of separated

; separated- usher

10. just so you know this feelin takin control of me

and i cant help it, i wont sit around, i cant let him win out

thought you should noe i try my best to let go of you

but i dont want to

; just so you know- jesse mccartney

11. the trouble with love is, it doesnt care how fast you fall

and u cant refuse the call, see u got no say at all

; the trouble with love- kelly clarkson

12. i can be tough i can be strong but with you its not like that at all

there's a girl behind this wall, u just walk through it

; wish you were here- avril lavigne

13. what can i do to make u mine, fallin so hard so fast this time

what did i say what did you do

how did i fall in love with you

; fall in love with you- backstreet boys

14. now its like im having this habit, keep calling out your name,

i thought id let you go, not leaving anytg behind

no, i still cant let you go

; because i miss you- jung yong hwa

15. i love you but you cant hear it

i love you but you dont know it'

i shed teardrops in my heart but you dont see it

; you dont know- m signal

there you go,

the bold one make me cry harder actually

till then, xx

are you all, like this?

yes you are right,

i cant do anything about that

plan plan plan

next thing to blog

comin rite up

okay i dont have to write this freakin list

but i feel like em

so im gonna do it anyway

-new resolution

-bandung trip

-mybe so called working exprience

and thats all i can think of rite now.

dasvidaniya

so called pissing off

everytime i fuckin mad at you

everytime i feel like plucking yo grapes or kick ur ass

yeah, that is every single time

i wasted my tears for you you you

everytime you say that

dont you noe baby

everytime u told me to wait

i wait till you freakin text me back

all the fuckin time

till i fall asleep, with fon in my hand

note that

spending those last day

last paper is propeller

*which is kinda hard for the lazy bump like me huh?

oh well,

the next day im spending time with em

tho it feels like time envying me, it still worth :)

ciko :) and my lil sis *sebok nak ikut haha

adi husni aka tok guru and and zazu lovee <3

spending those friday with

3 hours karaoke and watchin ombak rindu for the second time <3

after tht, lepak as-salam hee

zazu, adi, ciko :( im gonna miss you guys

gonna miss stupid story about petewik ciko

gonna miss havin all day long heart to heart with zazu

and tok guru's voice and his over confident attitude

last but not least,

i dont know how to survive

how to spend the next 6 month without you guys

lepak with you guys, seriously make me forget about him :'(

#notetomyself

you separate from em 6 month to finally get your chance

to prove that something

i noe i can do it

pray hard and crossing fnger

till then,