so called celebration of erasing 2011

i'll be doing nothing

i'll be rewarding myself marathon of 2PM show

i'll be waiting for you to text me

so that i can sleep like there's no tomorrow :)

yeah you got me, im a homey person heee

thats all for my celebration of new year eve

till then

this

HAHA this is so true like soo me

things u didnt notice

remember when i told you that

no one can pick me up at bus station and im having my period cramp like crazy

im crying literally because it hurt so bad

i didnt expect you to find me solution, i just want you to be with me

console me, tell me that im gonna be alright

when i say, go and have some fun with your friends at open house

i say it because i had to not because i want to

i sit at the restaurant for like 3 hour?

until my phone was fully charge from 0 to 100

you dont even care if im safely arrive home

u dont even bbm me and bother to ask if im okay

not a single take care for that whole day

all i noe u all happy tweet that you're having fun at your friend house

and to that one person, thanks for consoling me

checking me out every min and even ask his friend to look after me

i cry all the way home

there's a different between care and love

and you just being insensitive as always

like you doing to me right now.

thanks

not-so-skill as a soon to be in law choices

things need to fix.

seriously, i need to. have to and i will!

i have to packing things up on vacation. my mum do tht for me, all the time. bad

the fact that i cant cook. im one lazy bump to even learn to cook :|

waking up early in the morning :O

im having the hard time waking up in the morning. haihh

those 3 things. lets fix them up! hehe

till then

when everyone

when everyone says that you are not worth the wait

i say, who know miracle can happen

when everyone says i deserve better

i say, nobody is perfect

when everyone keep mad at me for crying over you

i say im doing just fine

when everyone hate you, mad at you, ignore you

i say, dont give up. u still have me. even u didnt noe realize that

when everyone say, fana, just give up on him

i say, mybe, just mybe u worth the wait

just that. even a part of my tiny lil heart agree with em,

i will stand right up and trust you

even this is going nowhere

checklist first: new year resolution. done

as everyone looking foward, so do i

so here come list of resolution yall

1) get over you

2) hopefully, i can accept the way i am. i wish i could see what is special inside of me

instead of hating myself for over 20 years

3) gain strength to leave you :') and not falling apart from it nor regret

for having such this decision

4) to be happy :) cuz i am not for this past 2 years

5) appreciate little things

6) emm meet my gu jun pyo, kim hyun joong and nichkhun :B HAHA

7) taking my license. lameee i noe. heh

8) be a better daughter, sister, friends and student and driver haha

9)wearing hijab i think :) and be a better muslimah

10) saving money for korean trip and learn to speak korean. oh yess

11) start in semester 6 with new attitude and confident level

12) have a better jan feb march apr may june jul aug sept oct nov dec :))

its not that hard isnt it except for num 1, 2, 3, 4.. okay its hard :|

there u go. 12 resolution for 2012. lets pray hard for this new year.

lets hope i have gut to tell you

till then awesome people xx

pms-ing i guess?

u noe girls

we noe when we on pms-ing when

1) u wanna eat all the time *yeah im hungry NOW

2)we just get mad and all emosional all fuckin time -__-

3)we got awhh super duper hyper and after tht cry for no reason

4)ur vagina is falling off like literally

but mostly i think, i eat and i cry and paranoid and emotional all the time

its me on pms

it sucks btw that u dont even realize what you've been doing

and when boys complaining,

well try to got ur balls kick

just we have to deal with it for SEVEN FUCKING DAY

it just, i dont like chocolate

dont gimme chocolate, i just hate it

till then

in another life, in would be your girl ; confession of a friend

besides, didnt i told you,

im addicted tothese 2 song

till then

hit the repeat peat peat on the playlist

i keep on listen to these song

which mostly because of the lyrics

p/s; this gonna be bored, u dont have to read it btw, okay

1. tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia, untuk terimaku seadanya

kerna ku tak sanggup, ku tak mampu hidup tanpa dia disisiku

; ost ombak rindu- hafiz & adira

2. walau ku masih mencintaimu, ku harus meninggalkanmu

ku harus melupakanmu, meski hatiku menyayangimu

nurani membutuhkanmu, ku harus merelakanmu

; bukanlah diriku- samsons

3. ku ingin kau tahu diriku disini menanti dirimu

meski ku tunggu hingga hujung waktuku

; cinta dalam hati- ungu

4. kerana dirimu duniaku terlepas kerana kau ku bernafas

kerana tanpamu semangat jadi tewas kerana kau yang teratas

; buat sang puteri- spider

5. if u ever leave me baby, leave some morphine at my door

cause it take a lot of medication to realize what we used to have

we dont have it anymore

; it will rain- bruno mars

6. if u wanna leave take good care

hope u make a lot of frienda out there

; wild world- mr big

7. u might think i dont look but deep inside the corner of my mind im attach to you

im weak, its true cuz im afraid to noe the answer

do u want me to

; true- ryan cabrera

8. i dont wanna fall to pieces, i just wanna sit and stare at you

i dont wanna talk about it, i dont wanna conversation

i just wanna cry in front of you

; fall to pieces- avril lavigne

9. so why dont you go ur way and ill go mine, leave ur live and i live mine

baby u do well, and ill be fine cuz we better of separated

; separated- usher

10. just so you know this feelin takin control of me

and i cant help it, i wont sit around, i cant let him win out

thought you should noe i try my best to let go of you

but i dont want to

; just so you know- jesse mccartney

11. the trouble with love is, it doesnt care how fast you fall

and u cant refuse the call, see u got no say at all

; the trouble with love- kelly clarkson

12. i can be tough i can be strong but with you its not like that at all

there's a girl behind this wall, u just walk through it

; wish you were here- avril lavigne

13. what can i do to make u mine, fallin so hard so fast this time

what did i say what did you do

how did i fall in love with you

; fall in love with you- backstreet boys

14. now its like im having this habit, keep calling out your name,

i thought id let you go, not leaving anytg behind

no, i still cant let you go

; because i miss you- jung yong hwa

15. i love you but you cant hear it

i love you but you dont know it'

i shed teardrops in my heart but you dont see it

; you dont know- m signal

there you go,

the bold one make me cry harder actually

till then, xx

are you all, like this?

yes you are right,

i cant do anything about that

plan plan plan

next thing to blog

comin rite up

okay i dont have to write this freakin list

but i feel like em

so im gonna do it anyway

-new resolution

-bandung trip

-mybe so called working exprience

and thats all i can think of rite now.

dasvidaniya

so called pissing off

everytime i fuckin mad at you

everytime i feel like plucking yo grapes or kick ur ass

yeah, that is every single time

i wasted my tears for you you you

everytime you say that

dont you noe baby

everytime u told me to wait

i wait till you freakin text me back

all the fuckin time

till i fall asleep, with fon in my hand

note that

spending those last day

last paper is propeller

*which is kinda hard for the lazy bump like me huh?

oh well,

the next day im spending time with em

tho it feels like time envying me, it still worth :)

ciko :) and my lil sis *sebok nak ikut haha

adi husni aka tok guru and and zazu lovee <3

spending those friday with

3 hours karaoke and watchin ombak rindu for the second time <3

after tht, lepak as-salam hee

zazu, adi, ciko :( im gonna miss you guys

gonna miss stupid story about petewik ciko

gonna miss havin all day long heart to heart with zazu

and tok guru's voice and his over confident attitude

last but not least,

i dont know how to survive

how to spend the next 6 month without you guys

lepak with you guys, seriously make me forget about him :'(

#notetomyself

you separate from em 6 month to finally get your chance

to prove that something

i noe i can do it

pray hard and crossing fnger

till then,

this.

it almost kill our friendship

seriously

i should get rid of this so called paranoid thingy

call me superstitious

im sure it hurt like hell everytime, torture myself

make me believe that you did hate me

rather than thinking that you love me. and you not

till then

sealed with lotsa kiss and hugs

it just a matter of time

im gonna leave you someday sayang,

right before you leave me to be with her again.

i couldnt stand your insensitive bullshit i guess

im sorry i couldnt fight this for you anymore.

u just gonna ignore me like you did with her

before tht time arrive, im gonna spend this precious time with you

even its your fault, im gonna say im sorry

still didnt learn eh from previous lesson?

when im gone

please take care of yourself, dont have fun too much,

p/s; i love you

this #OctTwtFst

this pronounce as october tweet fest

this was very very cool event

all twitterjaya gather at one place

at digi hq shah alam

lets pic do the talk!

this is, #terabek crew! love my girlfrengg <3

this guy, *cant recall his name, doin tht beatbox thingy, lagu who run the world

sumpah terbaik

ini bam_reel and faliqfahmie, ohh faliq twittercrush saya haha

belaian jiwa, i cant sleep tht nite. LOL

ignore my selekeh hair and dress :|

with abe dj nas-t. super hot! love yah! muahh

and at kak myra booth! miss u kakak pendek :)

ohh im kinda curious

since why the hell is #OctTwtFst not trending on tht day eh

padahal baru je announce #twtupprom

terus trending. twitter jeles ah tu

oh btw we made it to world record of somtg

with emm estimate more than 2k people showing up :D

artis yg dtg lisa surihani, fauziah ghous, fazura, nas-t :p, joe flizzow,
one nation emcee, dynas, intan ladyana, sheira ayoub, zahiril adzim and so on la

*forgive for the spelling mistake. malas nak google

till then, xoxo

what are words if you dont really mean it

this gonna be a long annoying post

*please take note

this is me. definitely

why on earth it have to be you?

and bla bla bla

it just one thing i gotta say

dont play with people heart, dont say those 3 words if you dont mean it

cuz you noe karma? it will get back to you

my problem is

im too attached to you

to the part i dont think i cant leave you.

as much i want you to leave me alone,

is just equal to the feeling i wish you dont leave me

i cant get mad at you

i just feel stupid if you must know

all the thing i have sacrife

you dont have to know about that

i just want you to at least

appreciate, having me by your side

and be there for me when i need you

its not that hard

cuz sometimes you kinda ignore me

im sorry i cant stop loving you :|

the strongest bond :')

i love em

with all my heart

loc; afif's azfar open house and ayzat's :)

at afif's

still at afif's but with ciko lovee :)

outside of ayzat's

tpm's member :')

standing from left; me, rara, chatiey, steck and ayzat

sit from left; ubee,momo, ciko and aiman

my old classmate at tpm

my bestfriend in tpm, miat

nazura johar :)

seriously guys, me heart all of you

i wish we can do this every year

tho we only noe each other for like what

2 sem maybe? but still feel like fazmily :)

till then

sealed with lotsa lovee :)

sawadika

soo i was going to bangkok on 23 sept 2011

ciko win this cimb contest on hitzdotfm

and she can bring along 3 friends

which is me, momo and her brother

hotel, transport and kaching also provided so yeah

its damnnn excited!

from left; her brother, ciko, navin (hitz cruzer), momo and me :)

at swissotel le concorde or whatever its name lol

the tix! we got zone a which same kind of rockzone :D

the thing is, LP was late for almost 1 hour and half

and we have to hear the local singing

which is in thailand version -,-'

it was worth anyway since LP rock!

i was moshing like crazehh haha for the full 2 hour and half! ;P

vainn time! hahaha

i freakin love this pic its on the hallway of the hotel tapi

sorry la gelap -.-'

on our way to erkk jj market

couldnt recall that market place

but it takes 2 mins from our hotel to the subway

we suppose to get the money before go here but

cheque is too late -.-

we just bring 2000 bath only

but enough to buy souvenir for all :)

till then ;)

sealed with lotsa kiss

always, since that march :')

in case you didnt noe

all that i try, leaves nothing but holes inside

i gotta learn someday and somehow
that you would meet other person and leave me alone
i dont think i can handle this right now
ive try and im sorry :(

how do you grow a moustache

moustache is facial hair grown on the outer surface of the upper lip

okay stop giving the definition haha -.-

you wanna see this kid grow a moustache?

or mybe not grow, wearing or made one

hahaha this sound silly

which im pretty sure that

kau mmg tade keje pagi pagi buta kan

tadaaa!

told ya

this is budak sengal

make his silly face in the middle of the night

make me laugh at 3 am in the morning! haha

nizam, u never fail to make me laugh dont you

till then :)

xoxo

hari raya and the blah blah (:

its been the 9th day of raya

and now i just got a chance to write a blog :)

i wont splurge much in this post.

just take a look at the picture okay

THE NITE BEFORE RAYA

we've been making these i dont noe what we call it but its fun

and and and danish bontot pon sibuk nak buat jugak :D

1ST DAY OF RAYA

with my mum :)

my twin sister! syahidah and syahirah

my bff amirah amalina :) now dah balik korea dah. im gonna miss u buddy :(

my bff since kindergarten ;))

2ND DAY OF RAYA

mena, dania and me :) i miss dania soo much. truth to been told :(

nak culik dia skrg jugakk :((

beraya rumah tokmak kt trg :)

sec pic at rumah tokmak

pity her, penat sgt berjalan. comellllll kan!

RAYA KE_ *CANT RECALL

fariq and azreen :) cous at jaybee

and and sempat jumpa kak myra! kakak sayang sayaa :)

okay thats for now

im doing the second post for today but just a lil bit later

cuz im having this massive headache :(

till then,

xoxo

all start on 1.40am 020310

those digits, it mean the world

i always thought you would be the one for me

apparently not

ive been asking the same question everyday.

how obvious could i be

so that you know that i'm falling out in love with you

you've been the same guy

for almost more than 1 years and a half

and after what you said to me just now,

i'm crying literally. like non stop.

thank you :')

because of you,

till then xoxo

happy 20th birthday :)

as this is my first post

i would like to wish my best friend birthday

his 20th birthday actually :)

its 12 august but sorry for the late post!

*hey u should be proud okay since ur my first post!

okay let me introduce to you,

this young man

who happen to be my best friend!

well he addressed me tht way

this guy

muhammad nidzam bin muhammad saroni

or @nizamsaroni! *follow this troll at twitter. haha kidding!

yeahhh its his real name, im not making it up :p

cuz a lot of my friend get kinda weird with his name

and even my lil sister called him *ur friend yg nama pelik tu LOL

first of all, sorryyy nizam!

i stole ur picture. its his bbm picture actually and one of my favourite picture

hoii i told u already aite! haha

the moment i saw this picture terus fikir nak letak dlm blog

serve ya right! ;p hahaha

he's good at playing piano, guitar (he just learned) *well kinda nice for a beginner

yelaa aku ni tempat mendengar song yg dia create kan

ohh and he is lady gaga freakk! goshh

he almost wanna colour his hair like her *okay yg tu tipu. hahaha

he ask me to do tht but naah, u crazy? satg saham aku jatuh la kan -.-

okay k k k k k k

nuff with that

since i'm officially broke! like superr broke,

im sorry nizam, i couldnt get u any present :(

sempat buat this one je

itu pon come across my mind 15 mins before ur birthday!

dahla buruk :( sorii tau wey!

2 candles represent ur age! 20 years old

yes yes awak lagi tua dari kita! tapi pendek tak tinggi tinggi jugak -.-

so thats it

happy birthday nizam and

dasvidaniya :)